Wednesday, June 12th, 2002
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8:17 am - I'm leaving you
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I feel like it's time for a new skin for the old ceremony (thank you for these words L Cohen) I'm leaving you. You've all been nice and such (especially you journal) but I'm different than what I was. Goodbye...
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Tuesday, April 9th, 2002
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5:29 am
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Sunday, April 7th, 2002
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12:16 am
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Monday, April 1st, 2002
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3:30 am
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I really am selfish. I've just justified myself in many ways. I guess even though I've already done this, I want to say sorry to (especially) Nick, Ashley, Angela, Hailey, to anyone else it could apply to.
I can't stand myself.
You never know how much you could miss something until it isn't there anymore. At all.
current mood:  disappointed
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Saturday, March 30th, 2002
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2:30 am
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Why does everyone have so many problems?
Either it's a troubled time or it's always been this way I'm not sure. This is the first time that I've really been able to take notice.
And then where do you fit in? Is your troubles worth it? I dunno. There are things worse than yours. I think everything needs to go away. Far faaaar away.
And two faced people bother me.
Deep down inside you know if you're two faced. Saying one thing, doing the opposite. Except truly only on one side. I'm just bothered by them, not hurt. I was hurt by one eight months ago, but hey I changed. So... I guess if you are one of those people and you are reading this then....
Take a hint and fuck off
current mood:  cold
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Tuesday, March 26th, 2002
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3:03 pm
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I don't know what Angela and Sam are thinking. But let me assure all of you...
1. I don't like Adam that way. No.
2. I don't like Stuart either.
3. Heheheh I don't like Matt. No way in hell. That's bad. Baaad. He is my brother. I look at him as a brother/friend. *Looks in direction of Angela and Sam's house* No.... no really. I like neither of the three. Just one and he is not listed.
current mood: bored
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Sunday, March 17th, 2002
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12:20 pm
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Am I really that sad?
Nope. Confused. Not anymore. Yay.
current mood:  ecstatic
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Saturday, March 16th, 2002
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11:54 am
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Hmmm...
Well
There are many things I don't know
current mood:  cynical
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Tuesday, March 12th, 2002
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6:05 pm
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5:59 pm
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5:40 pm - HELL YEAH
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5:08 pm
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Thursday, March 7th, 2002
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4:44 pm
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4:33 pm
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I've decided that A Perfect Circle is the best band.
Anyway, I'm not sure what to think about a lot of things, as usual. Why do we always have to regret how we were in a past year just because we grew beyond the year and have changed? Why must everyone judge you by your past and look there.
current mood:  intimidated
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3:24 pm
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Tuesday, March 5th, 2002
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7:13 pm
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I guess no matter what happens I will find out my answers and problems in the end. Maybe not the way I would've preferred, but I would've found out. It's actually a scary concept if you think about it. Maybe life is just a dream. I hope I don't ever get woken up from it, if it is, until I am ready to leave.
I need to be free in dreams though. Whatever.
current mood:  listless
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Saturday, March 2nd, 2002
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12:19 pm - Woah
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12:04 pm - Well... here I go again
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"This was never my world, you took the angel away, I'll kill myself to make everybody pay..."
Through all the good things we become stupid. Everyone. Better to live forsaken and able to talk and communicate honestly. But not always.
What? No.
My cycle begins anew.
What a surprise. Life is but a river. With time as a partner. And another thing...
current mood: cynical
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9:09 am
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Friday, March 1st, 2002
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8:07 am - I miss you
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"It's strange, it's strange
This pain, this pain that I love."
Huh. I guess it's just going to persist. I guess I could keep running. If I don't, well, there's just no other option.
Maybe... hey, it's not so bad. Is it? Well, if I do love this pain... because of what...
"I know why you hurt me,
I know why I let you,
The more you hurt me
The closer I got to you"
It's not like its intentional right? I can't write all this out because it's more of something inside and it's more of a feeling I know.
current mood: crushed
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contemplative